I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Since I first turned conscious of the beautiful and awe-inspiring presence of Lord, I have liked reading many wonderful religious performs such as the Bible (my favorite components are the Sermon on the Install and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. Not one of them come close to the greatness of a Program in Miracles. Reading it by having an open brain and heart, your doubts and troubles clean away. You feel conscious of a great enjoy deep within you – greater than whatever you knew before. The near future begins to seem so brilliant for you and your loved ones. You’re feeling passion for everyone including those you formerly have attempted to leave excluded. These experiences are extremely effective and at times put you off harmony a little, but it’s worth it: A Course in Wonders presents one to a enjoy therefore peaceful, therefore solid and so universal – you will question how therefore most of the world’s religions, whose aim is apparently a similar knowledge, got therefore off track.
I would like to say here to any Religious who thinks that his church’s teachings don’t really satisfy his hunger to know a kind, merciful and caring God, but is fairly scared to read the Class as a result of others’ claims that it is sporadic with “true” Christianity: Don’t fear! I’ve read the gospels many times and I assure you that the Course in Miracles is totally in keeping with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t concern the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these bad persons think themselves to be the only real companies of Jesus’ information, and the only real types worthy of his blessings, while all the should go to hell. A Course in Wonders reflects Jesus’ true concept: unconditional passion for *all people*. While he was on the planet, Jesus believed to judge a tree by its fruit. Therefore provide it a try and see the way the fruits that ripen in your life taste. If they style bad, you are able to reject A Class in Miracles. But when they taste as sweet as mine do, and the an incredible number of different true seekers who are finding A Class in Wonders to be nothing less when compared to a heavenly prize, then congratulations – and might your center always be abundantly filled up with calm, loving joy.